The SMS!!

This whole story about M's mom neglecting Danielle is really getting to me. I am a very straight forward person that always let you know what I think. So on Sunday after I left M's sisters house I was thinking how could I let her know how I feel. So I though I would send her an SMS which sed:

I just want to say thanks for everything you do for me and Danielle and we do appreciate it from the bottom of our hearts. Even though we don't get to spent that much time together anymore.

I felt so much better after I have send it. So last week we were all invited to Dine with M's grandfather for his 85th birthday. At first I did not wanted to go. We dropped Danielle off at my aunt (she lives just around the corner from me). The whole family was there. I kept my distance from M's mom I kissed her hello and that was it. I only spoke to her when she asked me a question. I felt bad doing that but the hurt I'm feeling kept popping up in my head.

So the Thursday night she phoned me I was so shocked. She said that we must do something tomorrow because she has neglected us the past few weeks. (My little inner person was shouting up and down "I finally got through to her without the REAL me doing it"). (I only work Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays). So I said "that's fine will see you around one. Just need to do some things". She said: "OK see you tomorrow:.

So my day started and I could not wait to finally spend some time with her. I really love her very much and the past year has been hell. I made all the attempts to keep in touch with her and made more efforts for her to spend time with Danielle then what she did.
So at 13:30 when I arrived at her house the past year just flashed right back to me. Yes M's sister was there to. I almost just left again. Its not that I am jealous on her its just that I want M's mom to spend time with Danielle alone. When she is there she keeps on giving her baby to M's mom then she cant play with Danielle.
We went to Reggies to change her pram due to crack in it. Went for coffee and that was it. Yes a total waste of my day. So I went home. I felt like screaming, crying, banging my head against the steering wheel. But I keep my calm infront of Danielle.

Yesterday was the last. I phoned M's mom to found out what she will be doing. (We had a public holiday in SA). So she said she will come visit around one. She did not sound to good. Like I said she suffers from acid reflux. So most of the times the acid pushes up through the night and then the next morning she is so weak and sick. So I had to do some groceries (I dropped Danielle off by my Aunt) shopping for the house. When I got a phone call from her about 3 hours later my heart started jumping and my face got this big smile, but not for long. It was M's sister they just want to know when I will be home. She is coming with. My lip dropped to the floor (nearly tramped on it) and my heart fell right into my shoes.

So I said to myself NO don't be like this. So I got home unpacked. They arrived about an half and hour later. We had a smoke and fetched Danielle. Everything went well until they wanted to leave. Danielle wanted to go with her Granny. I don't know if it was my imagination or what. It just felt like she did not want Danielle to go with even M's mom she did not seem eager to take her. So I told her I will fetch her later. So Danielle got her bag and was so pleased to go with she even kissed and hugged me goodbye.

When we got the car M's mom was holding the baby and Danielle wanted to sit on grannies lap so M's sister said she new it would happen and saying to her mom that she still want to stop at Spar. So had to count to 10 otherwise I would of exploded and say something I might regret later. So I told her I will take her now. Grab Danielle who is screaming and yelling and told her to go. She still tried to say something but I just walked on trying to keep Danielle from kicking and smacking me in the face. She was crying her eyes out so I had to get into the car and drive with her. I drove to my aunt. She was not home so Danielle was crying ones more cause we left her "other grans" house without saying hello. So at the four way stop we met again M's sister and mom came back from the Spar they weren't even 5 min in the store. I just waved and road off.

We ended up in the park. We just stopped at home when my cell phone rang it was her I did not pick up. She phoned again, again I did not pick up. On the 3rd ring (my little voice inside me said Pick up and just listen what she has to say) So I did. She said that she just wants to apologies she did not mend for it to come out the way it did. (My inner voice: she's got a guilty conscious)So I just told her it sounded like she did not want her to go with cause she had an excuse everytime M's mom wanted to take Danielle with her. So I just said its fine.

So this morning I had to drop Danielle off with my Aunt due to her school being closed. I made another attempt with M's mom to spend some time with Danielle. I phoned her to let her know that Danielle is at my aunts house if she wants to pick her up. M's sisters just lives one street away from my aunt so its not out M's moms way. So today I will see if she made an attempt to see her. If not. That will be it. No more phone calls, no more visits from me. That is fair is it not. I made more then enough attempts.